My (our) testimony

As of today writing my testimony I’m already a little over 1 year (happily) married. How faithful is God?

So, to be specific 18 August 2018 I met a man, just a random man who slid in my dm. We talked and the vibes was chill. I mean we could talk about anything and for hours. But you see at that specific time in my life I was also longing and seeking for a deeper connection with God and this man wasn’t Christian. He did not accept Jesus as his only savior. 

So, I was constantly dealing with this internal struggle asking myself why am I even talking to this man? I know it would not work. 

Do not be yoked together with those who do not believe. For what partnership is there between righteousness and lawlessness? Or what fellowship does light have with darkness?. - 2 Corinthians 6:14

But I kept saying “God this man Is different he is not partying every weekend; he seems honest he seems genuine. He is so positive”. I kept going back and forward with God, daily. Mentioning every reason why I should just take the step and date this man. But I felt no peace in my heart, I could not just take the step because it was not approved by God. No matter how much I tried to bend The Word of God to meet my wish, I did not felt the peace, reassurance to just take the step. I prayed, I fasted I did everything I could have think about but I felt no peace.

So, one morning just walking to attend my daily responsibilities, the Holy Spirit spoke to me He said:

“I’m not trying to live a positive life; I’m trying to live a Godly Life. I’m trying to please God”. - Holy Spirit.

And after going back and forward with my feelings and thoughts, for at least four months, I felt the peace of God. Even though this man was not doing anything I considered “bad” we were unequally yoked. God’s word wasn’t going to change because I wanted it to, so I just surrendered to it. So long story short, we became friends, we talked but I made my standards known and went on delighting in the Lord with my life. 

For the grace of God and my obedience, to God, he became curious about the God I serve and eventually he Gave his life to Jesus. So, with all, I want to encourage you to wait on the Lord. 

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. - Matthew 6:33

I’m still longing and seeking for a deeper connection with God, and so is he. We are doing it together. Him (my husband) + Me x Jesus = God’s favor all over our marriage. 

A de Wind - Jansen